Today, My mood very good, :). I wake up early in the morning and get ready for work in no time, ho3x, ;)). Then the most wonderful thing in this morning is my breakfast, He3x. I have some quaker oat, 1 packet of dim sum and mochi choco pie for snack! Yipiieee! \(^o^)/. I love delicious food!! And not only that, today the sky looks so cloudy which is my favourite weather, XD (minus I cann't write at my office, T_T). So this morning, I feel very happy! Good time in the morning *snicker*. Thx God, :)
Just...forget everything....
I don't understand... Why do I have to get more stress even this isn't about me in truth?... I don't want to think... I don't want.... Please... get away from my mind...
Is this the end of the world?...
I don't understand... We all human, live in the same place called earth... We have a similiar feature (although we have a difference too in characteristic, act and background). We have the same way of birth, born from our mother. But why there is such a discrimination in every place, every country...like that is the common thing in this world...
So sad... so ironic... There is so much people who talk about peace, democration, human rights and so on... but in reality, status, background, wealth, power and money are the most thing to classified every people in the world. Maybe that's why our God so sad and dissappointed with us as a human. He create us to be a good human but what He get?... There is too much sin in this world.
Why everyone cann't live peacefully? without any war, envy or dark mind... Is this the reason that we will through 'The end of the world" soon or later?... I just can pray the best for our earth and people.....
The thing that I scared until now...
Now, I'm listening Can't Help But wait by Trey songz ft plies and that song still scared me somehow. Not because that song but the memories behind that song. I just realize that this song still scared me to the death unfortunately even I like this song very much... So much, until I can listening this song all day! How ironic... When I hear this song, that's like something that I don't want to remember, will be re-opened again, againts my will though.
I remember that at 'that time' I listen this song with a broken heart, desperate mind and worries at my heart. I had a hard time back then with uncertain feeling, uncertain status. Even now (after I use this song for my bf ringtone), It still scared me.... I don't know why.. This like some kind of trauma... I hate to be like this... I hope everything will be over soon and makes me don't feel about anything anymore.... I'm sick of every this melancholic things, T____T
The weirdness of world or maybe the weirdness of human?..
A world really weird sometimes... Everyone seek for happiness in everywhere, everytime they have. When they still don't have it, they said, 'When I will find my true happiness?'. But when they already have it, they said, 'Is this real?.. Or I still at somewhere, dreaming about this?..'. Everything looks so wrong... so weird.. There is no end for satisfaction... Everyone seem has unlimited desire to be satisfied...
So weird... Is this why we called 'Human'?...
Bad day.... T____T
Today is a bad day for me. I just hear from my friend that there is a concert named "Twilite Orchestra~Cantabile!" on Jan 27th in Balai Sarbini. I'm really excited to hear this. Just imagine, there is rachmaninoff, bethoven, etude, and etc. "OMG!! I really must get this ticket for sure!!", that's what I thought before I called Ticket Hotline. When I called them, They said every ticket already sold!! *burst to tears* T_____T.
How can this happen??... Huu... I feel like I want to cry...
It's ended........
Finally, yesterday that person sent me a message. That's why I thought that everything already really-really over between me and that person. I hope that person have a full of happiness like that person wish for me too. I know I still have a little feeling for that person before. But after yesterday message, that feeling is vanished. More exactly like I don't have any feeling at all in my heart. My heart become so empty and there is nothing in there. I hope this is the best way. I don't want to think or feel anymore.... I stop my mind at some point that I won't care about love matters again. I will through my life with the way that my God choose for me...
So, everything already over between me and....... Sayonara...
