The last month's wish (can write or not)...

There are just some day before new years come. This make me want to think about what I haven't done in this year. And the one which pop to my head is writing. After some month, there is no increase in my writing. Every title that I write, never show any ending. I wonder why....

Why I still cann't write even there is no problem anymore?... Is that because I still have some worries in my mind?.. I want to write so much until I feel so sad when I cann't think about anything for the story. I take my pencil but no words come out on my mind. That's like I have no brain at all. The "youtube" that always play in my head when I wrote b4, didn't "play" anymore. That's like I'm lack of imagination and that's really hurt me, T___T.

But I don't want to give up. I'm still like writing so much and don't want to leave it. So I pray and hope that today, I can try to write again. Bless me God....

The most precious day in my life!!

Thx God. Finally, I have a peaceful day. Yay! Just like a dream comes true. There is no problem or any obstacles. Just spend my time at my home sweet home with my sis', feel a cold wind from my window, reading some books, listening a slowly but warmth song, hav a simple chit chat with my fidanzato. Everything just so perfect!! Thanx God. Thank u so much for this beautiful day in my life, <3

Today's lunch time!!

Hem... Today, there is no so much work for me.... I just doing the same thing like I did last friday. But that's ok, I like that job. Then, I have lunch at my office, alone... Somehow, I don't want to interact with other people again. Too much disappointment that I through with.... A friend that I have for a long time not being my friends anymore...

I begin to think about which one is my friend and which one not my friend... Everyone seems have two face with it. I don't know which one the real face. I'm scared. I don't want to be fooled by them again.... I lost my trust to them. They just want to be my friend when they have something they want from me. I'm enough of it.

Now, I just want to think about my job, my fam, my hobbies and what I want to achieve. And yesterday, I read some magazine called 'gogirl'. In that magazine, there is some rules about how  to maintaince and 'grow' ur own blog. That's look interesting. So I want to 'make up' my blog, ho3x. And, beside that, I want to make some thing such a little christmast present for my bf. I hope I have a time to do it...

What a day!

Hmp... Today, There is a heavy rain at my place from the morning. Makes me feel lazy to go work and want to lay on my bed all the time, ha3x. But I have to go too coz I have some work to do before 09.00 am. Unfortunately, my bf stuck at his home because of this heavy rain so I must go with my father. But that's ok. Just feel a little guilty to my dad because of it. I don't want to disturb anyone. I will go by myself if I can.

Geezzz... I think I must learn to drive a car so I become more independent (about my work of course). After I arrived at my office, I did that work and get finished before the time limit. So I guessed, I have a little success here, he3x. *satisfied, grins*

For that, I went to the mini market at the downstair basement and bought some candy, bean milk, aqua, some cup noodles, biscuit and a strap of panadol (what the!?). When I paid for that, the owner said "Congratulation, u got free Ice cream from purchase min twenty five thousand rupiahs!". How lucky I am today! But in my office I don't have refrigerator so I just keep that on that mini market. I will take that ice cream this noon, ho3x.

when did I will start to....???

Today, just a little bit awful from the morning. I just got up with a sleepy face and no desire to wake up. I don't have any breakfast or snack. I brushed my teeth, took a bath, dressed up, etc. When I'm ready, I don't have anything to do beside wait for him to pick me up. So I just back to my room and take a nap for a while.

At 07.16, he arrived then we went to my office, ready to work until...plop! There is something wrong with my office electricity and (as if we already now), suddenly my room became dark, T__T. Most importantly and sadly, my last work didn't saved I think. What a pain in ass!! But several minutes later, the lamp is on and everything can be turn on again.

I hope everything gonna be okay after this *pray*