Sometimes... World can be so cruel and unfair, T____T

"Sometimes... World can be so cruel and unfair", that sentence really common for us nowadays. There are so many things in this world can be happend without any explanation more further. For example, there is a boy who born to be a rich boy but really-really lazy but in another side, there is a boy who born to be a poor boy but so diligent. Another example, a poor people get really-really bad treatment from some kind of people when a rich people get a special treatment from them.

That's just an example but not fiction too. Like it or no, this things really happend to this world. Make me think, "Why this must be happend?". Why everything must be classified? Isn't there any humanity in this world? I know I'm no one. Not a president, not a famous artist or some other great person but I'm a human. I just think that is unfair to treat each people with a different kind of treatment *sigh*

But I'm no one and I understand that reality sometimes really cruel... Sometimes, so hard to be a human, (T___T)

Today is a special day! \(^o^)/

Yup, like the title for this post, today is a special day! Why? Coz there is something special case happen to me this morning, ha3x *until now I still smiling when I remember about that* :).

That happened when I woke up early this morning to go to work. I want to go to the kitchen through my living room. There was my lovely sis & my mom in there. They chit chat about something that I cann't hear clearly coz I'm still in my "sleepy mode" ON, Xp. I was greeted by my lovely sis with, "hmm, So that's true that u cann't walking straight when u still sleepy." (Ha3x, that's true! My blood presure is low so I need some minutes to really2 wake up & still not aware about things around me, :p). She talked like that coz yesterday we watched chibi maruko chan movie 2 & maruko did the same thing like me (cann't walk straight) when she still sleepy and I just said, "Hey, that's like me!". Ha3x, So she said that when She saw everything with her own eyes, ho3x, ;)). Then, I just replied her with, "Hmm..ng..." (I'm still not conscious yet, Xp) & went to the bathroom, ha3x.

After that, I already awake 100% so I have a little chit chat with my lovely sis & my mom about what she would cook for today. There was nothing special about it until we hear something. That's it!! We hear, "Miauw..miauw.." suddenly, made us look to that sound came from directly and there it was. My-own-wild-cat (I said that coz we don't pet her. She just come to my house everyday! XD) looked at us from our house's stairs and "Miauw..miauw" to us like she always did everyday. My mom shocked, my lovely sis happy & me, super duper happy then run to her. But she quickly run away, back to the roof but still look at me & "miauw2" to me, he3x. She is so cuteeeee!! Make me want to hug & pat her head. Unfortunately, I must went to work so I give up & went down, (T_____T) *forgive me my puss. I will play with u & ur kitten when I have a free time. I promise*

That was happened to me, he3x. Maybe for other people, this things not special. But for me, to be greet by a cat in the morning, that's so special and lovely!! XD. Make me so happy & feel so cheer up! I feel like I can work better in my office today! Thx God for this special day! :)

Today is the most tired day in this week, T___T

Oh God.. what's wrong with today? Begin with the pile of paper & document on my desk which is means there is a lot of work to do for today! *tears*. Not only that, my internet connection go wrong & ending with "No internet connection". What the!?? Even my job always need internet connection!???
And then, everything going wrong after that. I must go back again, again, again, again and AGAIN!?? to my boss office coz of some document. Make my boss ask me, "why did u come to my office again & again?" (Thx God, He didn't scream to me & chase me away from his office, :p).
If u think, that all matters above is the worst, u wrong! When I go to the bank, my shoe (right shoe) damaged with my right high heels detached from my shoe, T__T. That's make me feel ashamed (Oh God, T___T). The worst after that, I must go to the bank twice! Even the security in that bank know me & talk to me, "ur shoe didn't broken again?". They laughed but I want to cry, T___T. So I back to my office with a bare foot (yes, bare foot! I think my face already become a thick wall!) :(.
When I arrive at my office, there is still a piles of document on my desk (what the!??). Make me cann't say anymore beside sit down on my chair & sigh (plus brain blank for a while). Just three days ago, I had a motorcycle accident and now I already become a robot without no rest. Great! :(. I need some holiday, really! T___T

Today is....... hmmm...

Today, finally (after a long-long time), I post something on my journal. Not something important, just a piece of mind that I have.

I work like always in my small but comfort & private office. There is nothing wrong with it actually except some unfair things. There is one of General Manager at my company who works again after take a whole week holiday. She asked me to came to her office to ask some question that obviously she already know about it. Not only that, she told me that I was wrong when the truth is she was the one who misunderstood about something. But what can I say? She is my GM & I cann't say anything except "I understand". I thought that problem was already over but she called my senior too! Even she called my boss. Oh God... I don't know how to react anymore.. I mean, this is just a small problem (actually there is nothing wrong happen.This just a missunderstand matter!) but she over react!

I know I'm just 23 years old & she is 30+. She already has more experience at work than me. But shouldn't she more professional than me? Fortunately, that's not a big deal for me but I feel dissapointed somehow. My respect for her dissapear in no time... Huh... I miss my childhood time.. T__T

Now, I just back to my work after have a great lunch with KFC, XD. Maybe I will have a spagetti & a little burger for my snack time *snicker*. I hope everything gonna be ok until I go back home later... *pray*

(need to write & listening music, plus read somehow, :( )

Life is weird... or is it me?..

Life is weird... really-really weird.... Sometimes, we want to live as a good people but another time, we want to live whatever we want without being restrict by the rules.... We want a freedom as much as we can have.. like a bird which is always fly on the sky without any worries.

Sometimes, world looks so beautiful until we feel very-very grateful to the God but another time, world looks so sucks until we will give up and want to retired from being a human... Is that 'just' mean we only feel bored?.. Bored with our rutine as a human?...

Everyday, we always do the same thing from time to time. Student = study, Employee = work, Housewife = take care of her fam & house. There is no adventure like the advertising always told to us, "Life is an adventure!". Adventure like what? We have so many problem in our life. Is that what you called "an adventure"?...

Or maybe... the one who fault is us? God create earth, human with a good intention but everything go wrong when we fall to the sin. We, as a human, cann't take care our world like what God tell us to do. So everything turn bad and weird... I hope this doesn't make me crazy... I feel confused, beside feel weird and bad, T__T..

An ordinary life?

"We won't ever die if our dreams never die"... I didn't remember from who I hear that sentence. But that sentence still remains in my head when I think about my dreams. I don't know why but I feel my dreams already gone from my mind, slowly but sure.... I feel like "my old self" will dissapear completely and I will live in the reality without no dreams, imagination. What's wrong with me actually?...

I'm really scared but don't know how to fixed this feeling... I know I just an ordinary girl and didn't have anything special in me. But I feel like I will change & become another person that has so much different things with me now... Is this mean I will become a mature woman in no time?.... That the last thing I want to happen, T___T.

Uhh, God please help me... Guide me to the "right" way.... I'm scared..

My lovely day!! XD

I'm so happy today!! At first, I went to the supermarket with my lovely sister to bought some snack, food and drinks for us (even there was some snack still in our refrigrator, :P. That's ok coz we love snack so much!! \(^o^)/). Finally, I can bought a bottle of Carlsberg too, he3x. I had been longing for this beer before, TAT. So, I'm happily take that bottle to the cashier, ;)).
After that, we went home and did some girl's activities to treat our face, :p. Before that, she dye her hair with black colour (her hair was brown before, ho4x). Make me feel jealous somehow. I want to dye my hair with mahogany colour but I cann't coz of my hair's health, T___T. But, that's ok! I will do it someday! *full of passion*.
Not long after that, My lil' sister's friends came to my house to study together, So I made some edamame for their snack & made some onigiri and fried egg for our dinner, XD. Then, suddenly my lil' sister called me and said that our "daily" cat was coming, Yay!! That's made me so happy coz I never had a chance even just one to meet that cat coz of my job and my activities, TT___TT. So without any hesitation, I went to the upstairs (to the third floor of my house) and meet that cat. She (the cat) is so cuteeeee, like what I have imagine before, yeeee!!! *crying in a happiness*. I quickly take some photo of her! and fed her my homemade's onigiri. Fortunately, she want to ate it without any problem, he3x. After that, I and my lil' sis got down to the downstairs coz the sky became dark with a satisfied heart, :D.

Finally, I think there was no special occasion today but somehow, I feel so happy, refreshed, peace and special coz of that "warmth" activities (for me, XD). I can did something that I cann't do on the weekdays like did something with my fam or did something that I like. So I'm really-really grateful & thank's to my God, :). I hope next weekend, I can do something the same as today. A wonderful & lovely day without any problem & my job. Now, I will continue my writing and have a dinner with my two sisters. After that, I'm ready to rest my body and mind until next day has to come, to back again to my daily's rutine, :)