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Hi guys! ＼（＾▽＾）／.

 It has been a long time. Busy with life and Harvest Moon (wtf!? ヽ(｀⌒´メ)ノ), I cann’t post anything in my blog. So in this special occasion, I must posting something, didn’t I? （*´▽｀*）.

Like the title above, yeah today is my birthday! (ღ˘⌣˘ღ) ♫･*:.｡. .｡.:*.  My birthday was began with called from my  bf before 12:00 am one day before. We talked, talked and talked until finally, he said “Happy Birthday!”. After that, my lovely sis congrats me this morning before I went to work. There was no special treatment for me. So I didn’t expect for more. That was my thought before “a little surprise” came. My coworkers suddenly came to my room while brought a cute~pinky~box from Marquis! (ˇ_ˇ”) ƪ(˘⌣˘)┐ ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ ┌(˘⌣˘)ʃ. Maybe for other, this doesn’t mean anything BUT for me, It’s my craving from two days ago, yiipiieeee!!! That was  a delicious cheesecake from Marquis! ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪.  Oh my God, really, I thank so much for them. Two days before, I mumbled to myself that my last craving was Marquis and...hehehehe, u guys know the rest of it.

After went home from work, I had a simple dinner with my fam & my dear finally (Eventhough, I had a little quarrel with my bf before that （ﾉ´д｀)）.  They bought me The Harvest’s blackforest cake and it’s so yummy!! We took several pics together for memories. And unexpectedly, my bf’s friends came too. So we had a great chit chat before they got home. It’s night already (=ↀωↀ=)✧.

Really, for this birthday, I feel so grateful to God. He made my life complete! My precious fam, my dear bf, my sweetiest friends & my friendly coworkers, that was the treasure that cann’t be purchased everywhere.  Thank u so much God! U’re my best Father, Cousin, Friend, Companion & Guardian Angel!  (♥ω♥ ) ~♪.  He teached me His unlimited love for me. That’s why every wish that I said for my birthday’s wish is a Happiness for everyone. That’s sounds universal and unreal but that was my pray last night. My principle for my birthday is always GIVE TO OTHERS. I want to spread my God’s love with my birthday. I hope “this tradition” will continue until my last breath in this world, ٩(●˙▿˙●)۶…⋆ฺ.

Thank’s God for let me born in this world. ❤

A quick update of my life & New development! (*⌒▽⌒*)θ～♪

Long time no see! (*＾▽＾)／.
I didn't have any excuse except LIFE. Yeah, Life kept me busy allllll the time. That's why I can only post if there is something special happen. It's better than posting with the same topic everyday (・｀ω´・) (Work, Life, etc). So let's go to the main topic!
Today, for celebrate my 3rd anniversary with my dear, We decided to had a great & romantic dinner at SKYE. Actually, the real date was Nov 14th but coz of our job, we decided to move our appointment. SKYE is a great restaurant with indoor & outdoor part. 

                                                                           Outdoor

                                                                            Indoor

Coz we want to have dinner with a cozy & quiet atmosphere, we choose the indoor part. And if u want to get a table without waiting, u must reserve first. Fortunately, my dear always be a planner type so we got a table easily. To make it short, after we had a nice & delicious dinner, He told asked me....to be his fiance!°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°. Wait a minute! Don't think he will ask me with a romantic scene like some korean drama, hahaha. He said it frankly that from today I'm his fiance & put on a simple but lovely ring to my right finger. What an arrogant & always act cool bf!~(˘▾˘)~. But I was happy so I let it pass. We don't want to make this beautiful day become a bad day, don't we? I didn't cry but panic! Lol. Is this mean I will get married soon!???? Σ(゜ロ゜;). 

                                                             Roasted chicken w/ Potato      

                                                                       Seafood Paella

Yeah, Food porn!!!! (♥ω♥ ) ~♪. Actually, the main reason he choose this restaurant was Seafood Paella! Nope, He didn't crave anything. Seafood paella was the food I always craving for almost two months long and in my country, It was difficult to find a restaurant with Paella on its menu. So without telling me at all, he searched it himself. So sweeeeeet, isn't he? ♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ ). How can I leave such a sweet guy like him? Eventhough he isn't a romantic person to begin with, He prepared everything with his own mind. Thank God really, to made us met (｡◕‿◕｡). I know I'm not a perfect person but he accept me for who I am. I cann't do anything beside make him the happiest guy in this world hehe. Bless me God for that :).
After that, we met & hang out together with my lovely sis & her friend at Paulaner Brauhaus. This place was cozy but unfortunately, we got a smooking room. But that's okay! We got to taste their own made beer!! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ. That's what I waiting for!!!! *excited*

Yeah, with that pic, my post was over. It's already midnight here & I still have a little chit chat time with my lovely sis before I go to bed. Today was unbelievable but sweet time for me, (｡^‿^｡). I just can said Thanks to my God & pray the best for my life after this point, about my wedding plan, my work & my dream. I hope everything gonna be okay....... See u guys later! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

It has been a long time! ヾ(＠^∇^＠)ノ

Hi! It has been a long time, really. I got so busy with my work & my life until I cann't post anything . That's why when I have a free time like this, syutt!!!!!!.... work my fingers to my sweetiest keyboard, LoL. Let's begin

So far, My life has been smoothly. There wasn't any big problem here & there. Just through it day by day with my best effort!. And guess what? I can said "Today is a beautiful day!" everyday! Really, EVERYDAY!! . How cool is that!?? Hahaha. I just be grateful & happy day by day. I didn't say there is no problem at all but I try to kick away that gloomy thing. I try to be positive as much as I can. Work has been hectic, yeah, as usual but I enjoy it to the max! . I did my two different job with the same responsibility, Hang out or watch movies together with my coworkers, had a quality time with my beloved sisters, ADDICTED to The Mentalist so much! (hohoho Thx to my Head Accounting for that), listening my favourite songs while work hard, ate so many delicious food. How cann't I be happy? Thx God really, .

Yesterday, I with my bf, my lovely sis & mom went to this big wedding expo. No, no, I don't get married as quick as I can. But we went there so we can calculate the budget. Actually, I don't like exhibition and prefer to have a dinner with delicious food, LoL . Buuuutttt, my mom said
"It's worthed to check first so u know the budget". And, arghhhh, It's so expensive for wedding! Especially, for us as a chinese. I hope I can have a western wedding, simple yet lovely, but yeah, If I don't want to make a war, just do it as usual *headdesk*. So for now, we must choose what best for our wedding but didn't know the date or the theme yet *shot me*. I guess this will take a lot of time to search, make a desicion, or maybe choose the date. Arghhh, can I say it? can I? I HATE COMPLICATED THINGS!!!!  *scream*

A Successful for this week! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ

Yay, yay, yay! . Finally, I can through this week with smile & feel grateful everyday!!! Banzaiii for me!  (ノ￣ー￣)ノ. Really, I feel proud to myself when this week ended. I kept telling myself & repeat to my mind that I cann't lose from everything that made me sad, miserable, angry & down. I'm happy doing my hobbies, ate a lot of delicious foods & play games to my heart content
So that's it! With this cheerful & happy feelings, I feel like to write ~diary like~ post. Let's begin with some photos, shall we?

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 1. This top was my outfit for yesterday (a.k.a Saturday). I bought this coz my coworkers choose it for me. They kept telling me that this cute top was suitable for me (yeah with my small body ). For the bottom, I used white jeggings to match the top. Yeah, comfortable, feminine yet lovely. That's why I choose it for a nice & semi formal dinner, （￣ー￣）.
2. A Rib Eye.........(-_-)ゞ゛ *think*... Hawaian err... Steak!  . I forgot It's long name (T___T). Yeah, I think that was A Rib Eye Hawaian Steak. We had dinner at this cozy & calm restaurant named Q SmokeHouse . The steak was delicious! Really! Eventhough, I don't like meat (what the!??? ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━) but this steak was success to make me drooling & hungry in no time. I gave this 10/10!
3. I bought this three boxes of cookies with different flavor for snack at Collete & Lola. The pink one is almond which is I love, The orange box is chocolate biscuit with a coffee cream (that's why it has a bitter taste! >.<), The last one which is green, is a round biscuit with pistachio inside & coated with snow sugar. I hope I can take some photos to show u guys what the snack looks like at each box but... yeah, we finished all in a second! Gomenn
4. This was a cord holder. As u can see from the pic above, I bought domo (on the right) last month. It's very useful to me that's why I decided to buy another one. But I choose different model from the first. I bought this rilakkuma (on the left) when I went to the market today. It's not expensive and cute too! The price is about $ 2 for one package.
5. Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! I'm very happy to bought this new cooking knife! Hahahaa (Don't know why ). Maybe because I love to cook. I got excited to buy a new knife & went to Ace Hardware immediately, LoL. I choose this long knife so I can used it for everything I want to cook. Yeah actually, my first plan was I bought this sharp knife to cut some sushi roll but u know, woman, we buy something that can be use for everything!  XD
6. Haha, this was the result after I bought that new cooking knife. Beside that, I want to try to cut it without any failed! With a new weapon knife! . I used tsukini, tamagoyaki, smoked beef & crab stick for the filling. My lovely sis tasted it before she go. She said it was delicious & want to take it as a bento for her & her friend, hahaha. But I didn't let it, I thought it's not VERY delicious like she think. I didn't want she got ridiculed by her friend if they thought it wasn't good enough. So yeah... I quite satisfied with the result, know my fam love it, It's enough for me, .

Really, this week was fabulous! I love it when everything going smoothly & simple! . It's thanks to my God for every Gifts that He gave to me. I can smile everyday from my heart with a grateful feelings. I thought there wasn't any other thing that can be compared to this happines. Thank's God for everything .  Now, It's time to prepare myself to fight for another week.
 

My Biggest Effort to through this week! ლ(ಠ_ಠლ)

At my last post, I already said that I will try to feel grateful everyday & give the best smile for everyone. But yeah, Life is full of surprise & I began to pushed myself to the end to through this week! It was began with my job. I came to my office with my truly & big smile (It's not weird for the others coz I usually smile to them) . I was happy with my job. It's hard but I love to learn something new & proud with it if I can finish it without any problem. But this matter, so far from I imagine. Somehow, I was responsible for something that didn't included in my job desk.  Yes, I had been asked by VP to help him & happy to help but after I finished it, He kept calling me to help him eventhough I had my own work to do. And it's hell a lot than what he asked me to help. To make it short, finally I refused to help coz I had my own responsibility to do.
Guess what? As stubborn as he is, he still called me to help him. So in the end, I did two works at the same time. In my heart, I always said so many times, "Don't worry. U can do it! If He gives that to u, that means u can do it". Buuuuuuuuuuut, that's reality for u. I got depressed day by day until I felt so stressed. And It's harder for me to smile everyday, I try it, still! In the end, I got this feeling told me, "why must u lied to urself? Smiling when u want to crying? That's sad...". But yeah, me with stubborn~didn't want to get weak~mind, kept trying so hard to fullfil my promise *stupid me*.
Until (yeah like father like daughter), I had a fight with my dad just because I want the best for him. I love my fam so much. I want they always bless with happiness. He thought that I never understand him. His health was weaken & I try to make him life as healthy as he can but he didn't care about that. Even he ate some dish that was forbidden for him. How must I react about that? Especially after I stressed so much from my job, came home to rest & found him like that. Like a volcano ready to erupt! . I feel sad, dissappointed & angry.
And yeah (like there is no end for me), I got another problem from my bf. He made me feel so dissappointed. Oh God... at that time, I forgot my promise completely. Really, I just went to my room, cried in the silence until my tears was dry & asked to myself why this thing must happen when I tried so hard. After that, I sat at my bed. Blanked completely in mind, staring to nowhere & didn't have any appetite at all! *shoot!*. I felt so damn useless then got sicked for a day. Doctor said my blood pressure got so low & something wrong with my gastric. I got one day long to rest beside think, think & think. I asked to my God why even my simple wish cann't be true. I asked myself, "am I going to lose?". Really, "heart broken" from ur beloved people was hard to heal. It needs 1 day long for me to stand up & decided to try my best (again! ).
God always loves "His children" so He gives help with His own way. I tried to back to my promise again. I left my problems behind & hang out with my best girlfriends. And like, the door opened itself, my bf picked me up to settle our problem (eventually, he said he didn't think about our problem & picked me up to had a nice dinner together. He was worried when I was sicked & want to make me eat happily. That's why he took me to this nice Japanese restaurant.Thank u so much my dear). So I'm happy again!
Yeah, maybe later I will meet the same problem or maybe more bad or nothing will happen? I don't know. I just through my life day by day & kept told myself to be grateful, hehe. Enough with my rumble (maybe :p), I will give u guys this delicious food pic which made me fly to heaven in a second! :3. See u guys next time!     

Thank's to God for this quiet & peaceful week! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♥

Hehe like the title above, Somehow this week really really really peacefulll!! (eventhough, day by day I got busy with my job but that doesn't mean I cann't be grateful for all of My God's blessing). There wasn't any weirdos in my contacts, big problem in life, I can eat delicious food, My dear didn't annoyed me,  I can read so many beautiful books & I can watched Itsjudylife, bubzbeauty & pewdiepie everyday! So yeah, I can told everyone that I'm happy this week!! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°
Haha, such a simple life but I'm totally happy with this kind of life. I know I'm not rich, not pretty like any artist in the world or even too smart to begin with. But God gives me the best things I ever had = warmth & simple fam, my weird~funny but kindhearted~ dear, my lovely~always be there~ best friends, my funny~serious yet friendly & family like~coworkers & life to always wake up on the next day and be with my beloved people around me, (｡◕‿◕｡).
Life still hard but I try to feel grateful everyday & give the best smile for everyone. Thank u so much God, really! U're the best in my life!  (｡♥‿♥｡)

(This is maybe the shortest post that I ever made but really, this post was made with happiness in my heart. I cann't even stop smiling when I typed this post haha, stupid me. But this means I feel really grateful & happy without any big & happy occasion happen to me. I love my ordinary & simple life!)

Holiday & A New Handmade! (｡♥‿♥｡)

really, times run so quickly when we enjoy it (~,~). [Give me another holiday!!!!!! ヽ(*´Д｀*)ﾉ].
To make it short, my 1st part of holiday was Mall to Mall section hahaha. I don't know why but my bf & his friends seems want to know about the mall that they never go yet. So it became two malls in one day, :D. Actually, I don't like mall coz I just go there if I need something to buy and I don't like crowded place to begin with. But I was happy being together with them and importantly, I can found some delicious food there, :p. After that day, I went to ANOTHER MALL again with my mom. We seldom go together usually coz of my work so I use this chance to go a date with her, （⌒▽⌒）. We ate, went shopping together & met my uncle's fam unexpectedly. Made us more happy than it was! We had a long chit chat while eating some delicious yogurt. At 18:00 pm, me & my mom decided to went home coz I want to cook shabu shabu for our dinner (I'm happy that My mom love my shabu shabu so much!).
On monday, unfortunately, my three years old~handphone crashed without any reason. Leave me a reason to buy a new cellphone, =3. That's why I decided to bought Samsung Grand in this occasion. Actually, I always like this cellphone for a long time but never want to buy it if I don't need it. My friends always said that I was like a mother. I buy something that I need, not that I like. I told them coz I know how it feels to work hard everyday. So I don't want to use my money so easily like them. Hmmmm, in my mind, nowadays life is so hard. There is poverty everywhere. I do feel grateful to God for everything that He gave to me but that doesn't mean I can life so reckless, especially about money, :D.
Enough about that. So with this new handphone, My brain & my fingers feels like "there is something I can make!" LoL. Suddenly, "I want to make a new handphone strap handmade!" appeared on my mind. Fortunately, I had some free time on me so without any hesitation, I made a pattern & began to make it. And this is the result :

A Couple Doll

At first I want to make one but after thought about it, I decided add one as a surprise for my bf, (•ㅅ•). This project took me nearly two days to finished it. Tired and need so many effort but I can smile proudly in the end when The result was good enough, :). After this, I will move to next project for my lil' sis. She asked me for it a few hours ago and I said I will make it after update my blog LoL.

And to make this day more wonderful (hey, that just what u think! ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌. Never mind!), I cooked tamagoyaki for me & my lil' sis dinner. Somehow we always love this simple menu hehe.

Hemmmmm, I cann't wait for my 2nd part of holiday next week (｡ >艸<). I hope everything going smoothly with the preparation and all. Thx God for everything (｡◕‿◕｡)

 

Brighter than gem! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

Yeah, after two weeks fighting with myself. Up & Down, Up & down again and again. It's time to up again! Don't get me wrong, Life never flat so maybe there is a time I will be down again....... BUT! Don't always focus on bad things. (It's funny, even for me, that I can be sad, negative, happy & positive at the same time ┐(￣ー￣)┌. Stupid me...). Please don't blame me if I post something sad then happy post next. That's Life. I just posting what I'm feeling that time, ԅ(≖‿≖ԅ) (blog = diary (*´∀`*)).
Back to main topic. So now, I cheer up again! and begin to hav a plan about try a new recipe. I got a lot of hobby and one of them is cooking. If I have any free time, I use it for cooking. And two (or three?) days ago, I cooked this :

Spaghetti Carbonara ala chef Matteo

That recipe was so easy! U can do it urself at ur home quickly for a "delicious but not so hard" pasta!  (｡♥‿♥｡). (U can watch this video to know the recipe http://id.she.yahoo.com/mamma-mia-resep-spaghetti-carbonara-134100045.html. Really, It's simple! I cooked it after watched his video). And because I love pasta so much, I was happy while cooking this. My lovely sis love it too! We happily ate together (❁´◡`❁)*✲ﾟ*.
So for now, I quite interested in Paella. I searched for its recipe (delicious & easy recipe, of course!) here and there and finally found it!  All that's left now is the time to cook. I hope I can spare one time to cook it (˘ʃƪ˘).
Yeah that's just a simple plan but for me, it's enough to bright my day with getting excited to gather all of the ingredients & hav a new cooking experience, ヽ(○´∀`)ﾉ♪. Beside that, a few hours ago, I read some cute quotes (plus cute drawing! U guys will like it!) at http://chibird.com/. 

That pic above, slap me a little. I used to look down like that, several days ago, and yeah what I only see just the ground. I must gather all of my courage to keep my head high & think positively! (ง •̀_•́)ง. This good friend told me "Try not to make things so confusing for yourself." (Thank's to buffywrestling (づ￣ ³￣)づ). So I try and cheer up myself. I try to focus on the positive side, not negative side. I want to make myself more brighter than before, from inside and outside (˘ʃƪ˘). Yosh!! :D

I must be grateful, right?..........

For eveything that I hav.. for everything that He gave. I must be grateful & thank to God so many times. I must be positive, not rumbling so often, not feel sad for everything that i lost. For that wasted time..... i must be happy right? Smiling, cheer up and singing all the way. That I must be...right?... So why? My heart keeps telling me there is something wrong... like my heart been tied up, tightly. Is there any "leaking"? From inside..... empty or frozen?..... i must.............. be happy...........right?

Everyone has our own limit!! ლ(ಠ益ಠლ

Wew, really, sometimes people didn't know about their own~suck~attitude! How can they made the same person mad again and again and again!???? (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻. I don't want to say it, but F*CK with them!! Is it wrong to be mad when we already got patience so many times!???? Honestly, I'm good enough not to kicked them on their ass or slap their face! But why, they keep doing it again!????
Is that why we have "angry"? Why they keep asking me and made me the one who responsible about it even that isn't my "job" from the beginning?? They keep asking to me like I'm a God who knows everything! I got my own life & time too. Arghhhhhhhhh, reallly......ヽ(#ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ┌┛. And my bf, sureeeeee he was a great~damned~clever person for always make me more angry then b4 and blame me for my attitude in the end, GREAT!!! I'm sure I want to kill him sometimes (◣_◢).

Then I realized, our world always judge someone by our "cover", our appearance, not what inside. Sorry, if this thing didn't have any connection to my grumble above. BUT, I feel hate for all of that hypocrite, sweet talker, drama queen and old rules! Why everyone feel so high to decided others life??? "u must do this... u must do that.... u must become like that..... ihh, that was stupid.... or why u like that??". Oh pleaseeeeee, did u not busy enough to always interfere in others life!???? Our God gives us a freedom to choose what we gonna take our life into. So why they keep complaining, commenting? Shit! I'm big enough to choose what I gonna do or what I want to do. I'm not a doll that always get played when u want.
I don't need anything. I just want that u go away and don't disturb my life for the rest of my life! Please. Don't add any more stress to my mind. Really, It sucks when u want a peace but what u get is a war :(

A new start! but........ ԅ(≖‿≖ԅ)

The strom in my life has passed...... Finally *sigh*. To make it short = depressed ~> Looking for a job ~> got a new job~> made a new start at my new office (꒪⌓꒪). My explanation was simple but in reality, that really really complicated. I feel relieved when they said "Okay, when u can start to work at our company?" (especially, after struggle so hard in 3 hours to decide between three choices). It started on June 10th and for the umpteenth time, I tried to adapt quickly in my job & that new environment.
There wasn't any weird things & rules but somehow, I felt terrible at first~three days. I got home with a heavy burden in heart without any reason. I don't know why... I just cry silently at my room. This is a weird feeling, isn't it? I keep asking myself, "what's wrong with me?". Even I searched about "stress symptom" on google and try to find out about how to cure stress. I really don't know what to do, what to think. I'm afraid that I am going insane. I just can pray to my God and go to the church.
Luckily, I got busy with my new responsibilty and forget about one or two problems. Like yesterday, my company made an outing event at one park. They divided us into 7 teams and gave us some games to improve our teamwork & mind. That was a fun & positive activities. I didn't think too much about my "worries". After that, I went to mall with my mom, my bf, my lovely sis & her friend. It was a nice hangout. We chit chat together & laughed happily. And voila! My day run so quickly! When we went home, everyone felt so tired and quickly go to sleep. A nice day without any cry, sadness & feeling down. (ง •̀_•́)ง
The next day (a.k.a today), I went to church at 08.30 am. At 10.00 am, I was ready to attend my friend's wedding with my friend, his gf & her friend. That trip took almost three hours until we found the right place. I met all of my ex-coworkers there and chat happily. We ate, took some photo then continue our trip with hunting some delicious snacks there. I got home at 19.00 pm with a tired & exhausted face. Really, two days full activities in a row, It's possible to get really2 tired from it, (ಥ⌣ಥ). But, actually, it's nice, tired but happy. And I got a new friend from this trip, :). She said It's nice to go with me and ask when will the next trip be,  (¬‿¬).
Overall, there wasn't any special thing, just a daily life and somehow, I thought that "maybe it's nice to get married...". Is that a sign for me to settle down finally?... Or I just feel "Yeah, there is nothing more to achieve...."?... I'm still confused but...... if God turn my way to get married, maybe I will do it... woman career or housewife? щ(ºДºщ)

Sad moment...... (╥_╥) & my regret......

Yeah, like the title above, this time is the saddest moment in this year.. My plan, my hope, my courage was disappeared just with one sentence from my bos... She said that our company will be close at the end of this month, ( p_q). Back to my last post, I got so excited about my plan, outside my main job and with this, I feel like "what the fuck with this!!???".  But more important than that, I feel like a stupid person who got lied by my boss. How can I become a stupid kid and let her fool me with her sweet promises???
Especially, when she said that, I just blank, don't say anything (don't know whether I stupid, confuse or something). MY brain denied it several times but that's the reality. It hurt so much.. So many question comes to my mind... How can I live after this?... How can I paid my lil' sister's school fee?? How to paid my fam's life expense?..Why this thing must happen to me?... I always did my best in every job that I have for my fam, my life & my dreams. But why??... World is so unfair!! (ಥ_ಥ). There is a lot of people outhere who rich and use their money everyday just for fun. And here, when someone did their best to make their life better, why must end like this?.....
Yeah, this is my fault.... My fault for being stupid and trust her promise naively. And now, she already had her new position at her new workplace, GREAT!! Even, her bestfriend got a new job directly with her link eventhough, we are THE ONE who got a promise from her. Yeah we are stupid! щ(ಠ益ಠщ). And now, she happilly set her profile pic with her smile face... I don't know what to comment anymore... Coz of her, I lost my job, quit my piano course & don't know how to face my fam, ((T.T； ). I feel so useless and don't know how to trust people anymore... I kept trying my best in everything and this is what I get (I feel like every motivator in this world laugh at me).
A few hours ago, I chat with my coworker. He & I at the same boat, He told me that he cried quietly in the bathroom so his parents didn't know about it. I really2 feel sorry for him, especially when I know his mom was being sick all of this time (for me, that was my dad). I said it's ok to cry at this time eventhough he is a man. "It's heavy for us... Me too, just cry quietly at my room so my parents didn't hear that. Why must this happen to us? We didn't do any mistake at all!", I said. Nowadays, so hard to get a job with good salary, good environment & medical allowance. I just can stare blankly at every job vacancy in front of me. I'm afraid that I will take the wrong decision again like before.... "High paid = Overload job with a lot of overtime", I don't want to lose my special time with my fam, don't want to become a robot with no feelings beside "tired, I must sleep....", don't want to make money as my God...
For now, I don't know the answer.. I just can pray and hope that this will pass....

Unexpected-Warmth Happiness! ♪♪(o*゜∇゜)o～♪♪

Lol, I don't know how to start this post. Today, my life like a roller coaster! (I hope I don't spell "roller coaster" wrong, sometimes my head got blank & missing some words here and there (⊙﹏⊙✿) ).

So, at 09:00 am, I went to work (Oh yeah, I still work on Saturday coz of my stupid boss), there wasn't any special thing beside I got mad to my coworker (Just called him A). Not because he did some mistake but I scold him coz he is my bestfriend. My stupid boss used A as much as she wants. U guys maybe think that I'm too arrogant or something by comment about this. But let me, explain everything. I never want to intervene to other's problem but this one, I got angry coz my boss's unfairness. I had another coworker called B. U can say this B person, not really discipline at work. Just because, B is my boss's friend, B can do anything he wants. Not only, B neglecting his works & comes late, B OFTEN off from work with reason "Sorry, I got drunk last night..." and with that, my boss accept that reason! (WTF!???? (●__●)). I'm sure if one of us (beside B), get off with that reason, my boss will kick or fired us for sure. Back to main problem, with B's absent, his job was delegated all to my friend, A. At first, I just "Ok, helping it's ok if this for our company" but after several times, I just "Hold on a second! Why did u do all of his job when he didn't even hav any reasonable reason to be off? U hav ur own job to do". I didn't tell A to be bad but to be logic. That's why we hav a job desk, right? So we can do our responsibility properly. I know we always try to be a good person but not to be used like this. There is no wrong with helping but this unfairness is a no-no. Fortunately, A understood what I mean and said will talk to our boss if "her unfairness" comes again. Ahh such a bad boss, really.....

Never mind, continue to 13:00 pm, I was happy to spend my time with my lovely sis & A ♪(´ε｀ ) (with this u will know why I said roller coaster). I asked A to go with me. We chat together while having our delicious lunch, went to pet shop and smile widely while looking at that cute hamster, bunny, doggie & kitten and had snack (*゜▽゜ノノ゛☆. That happy time made me forget all of the bad things in the morning! XD. After that, we met our friend & his gf while my lovely sis got home. We had this quick meeting to talk about & do our side job. Quite took my time, especially with my bf kept contact me to know what time I got home (I got another appointment for today). So I quickly did everything and finished it at 16:00 pm. I got ready at home then accompany my bf for the rest of this day until 21:00 pm.

Then, that unexpected & warmth happiness comes! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°. Begin with my simple thought about cook for my sisters, ended with a big laughter & smile,  (｡♥‿♥｡). I cooked a simple~homemade shabu-shabu and asked my fam to eat together. Simple isn't it? Everyday we got busy with our own activities and only meet at night for a few minutes then go to sleep. So I thought there is nothing wrong with this simple plan. And that's what I got, we chat and laughed happily while eating this delicious shabu-shabu.

Stupid me for didn't took a photo earlier, T___T. This is my bowl...

I was grateful, really-really grateful for this little but happy things. Everyone always seek for happiness but if we don't feel grateful for what we already have, we won't find any happiness itself. Don't get me wrong, problems still comes to my life but this happy time, enough to fill my heart and my strength so I can through this life more stronger. Importantly, I thank's to my God for let this happen, (・∀・). And now, It's time to sleep. Tomorrow, I have a full day seminar to attend. I will do my best for my & my fam's happiness! (ง •̀_•́)ง.