I think It's a great improvement if I can post in my blog more rutine but yeah, time *thinkhard*, time, time LOL. I need more time and no more drama in my life please. I don't know. Nowadays, my heart kind of "turn off" somehow. Sometimes, I don't feel anything because I was too tired of everything.. *playingmichaelbubble'shomeonbackground*
It's a pity when my mind was back to my old days and thought about how creative, imaginative I was, back then. Not a single thought before that I could be like this after got married. One of my regret for sure. I wish I can open my drawer and turn back to my teenager days (doraemon where are you? T_T). But yeah, LIFE still goes on.... Just can put all of my heart's pieces back, locked up inside and shut down for ~don't know how long it will takes~.
Overall, my life still good enough (Just don't think about in laws, coworkers & husband). Career is ok, enough. My daughter is my precious treasure. My family still my priority. Money isn't my number one. Relationship with God still in a healing process. So good so far. Pray the best so there is no more drama in my life. Focus on my purpose of life. Funny to think that I WAS happy to learn about human but come to hate human myself now (eventhough, I'm a human too LoL)
Will try my best to not overly thinking about everything. Wish me luck!!
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Reality in Life & getting old😂 (part 2)
Let's continue from my last post, 😁.
Yeah..my life really has turned upside down after got married & having a daughter. I feel like I become someone else that I never know before. I'm not being "ME". I can't do all of my hobbies, don't have time to sit down & read a book, don't even have a single idea at all to write (back then I wrote several story myself coz I love to write so much. When I re-read my book before, I amazed with how much I have a lot of creativity back then *sigh*), don't have a desire to sew & draw and the thing that shocked me the most is I seldom listening music & sing to my heart content anymore 😢.
I changed a lot... I desperately pray to God for helping and make me more stronger. More importantly, for making me back to my oldself but I realized that is impossible... Sounds so bad indeed LOL. Reality is harsh. I already warned you😎
Okay, let's stop here before my post become more negative & full of sorrow😂. Everyone say we must look everything from both side, right? So let's see the good part from being married (Okay, anyone who want to get married soon, you can feel relive and your dream of happiness in marriage life can come true!). After got married, you have "an alarm" that will save you from loneliness. Don't get wrong, sometimes you can still feel lonely eventhough you already married coz of several reason BUT, from my experience, that "alarm" always save me from loneliness. That "alarm" is the feeling that your husband & your child (for me) will be there for you no matter what happen. For example, I always feel insecure & afraid of loneliness (despite I don't bother for being alone) but when I came home and met my husband & my child, my loneliness is disapeared. You get it now, right? The feeling that you're not alone in this world. Something like that.
A simple happiness from being together with your family is priceless! Their smiles, their cares for you, make you feel grateful & thankful to God. Spend the day with them is special. Your memories with them become so precious 'till you're afraid that someday it will stop. Being with your family, make you feel afraid of getting old and die. I never afraid of death before and getting old is like a natural part of life. I never hesitate to say my real age when someone asked me. But after having a child, make me a little afraid of death somehow....Now, you can sharing everything with your own family. You have someone beside you to spend your life with. Sounds so perfect, right? Yes, when you don't include life and reality there.
Back to my life, despite all of happiness I received, reality balances my life to make it more colourful eventhough I hate it so much. Nowadays, I never make any long goals in my life. I try to live my life day by day without pushing myself too much. I ain't getting anything good from doing like that. I realized that time sure flies so quick and I must enjoy most of it fully. Not LATER but NOW. Back then, I was so stricted to myself. I must do this and that, become this and that. In reality, when you die, you won't take it to your grave. Your title, your wealth become meaningless. What's important to me is my family. I'm getting older is certain but my happiness is made by me, not who I am. I still feel tired, overlystress, sad but I give in to all of that. I still hate how a humanbeing can be more bad than animal nowadays. Hope everything gonna be alright and I can repair my relationship with God day by day... *pray*
I'm back!! Reality in Life & getting old😂 (part 1)
I'M BACKKKKK!!!!! Finally, after three years long fiuhh.... In the end, I cann't stop my desire to write, say, and post something. All of this time, so many things happened and changed my life. From being a wife to a mother right now. So drastic in time and I can't help but feeling tired without any ending.
Being a mom not entirely bad, really. It's a happiness to life and grow old together with your child. BUT (so many but I will use here😂), say bye to your rutine and "me time". I gave up so many things for my daughter. For spend time together with her, to be more precisely. Maybe people outhere will say I'm eaggerate it or my time management is so bad. Yes, there is a lot of mom outhere can do an excellent multitasking. Can still manage their good appearance while taking care their child and husband, active in socmed, do their hobbies and etc. But I'm just an ordinary human being. Let's check my status right now🤔. A daughter, a wife, a mom, a daughter in law, a friend, an employee and so on... Don't forget to mention that I still breastfeeding so... Yeah, my time everyday isn't enough to fully maintain everything.
But (I already warn you😏), just be a mom. You will know that your sacrifice is worth it😊. Seeing her growth everyday make you happy. Her smile become your treasure. Her happiness become your purpose in life and your own happiness. Especially when she called you "mama", it's like a song that you will longing to hear everyday. Shortly, she is my everything and my priority right now.
Until here, everything sounds nice right? So let's begin to ride a rollercoaster in life with me😎. If you are getting married soon, please stop reading right here right now. This "spoiler" will make you doubt your choice. Because, it's my point of view of married life that already proved by my experience and I always tell the reality in life, good or bad.
When I'm getting older, I love to stay low and live in a peaceful surroundings. Sadly, reality won't let you live in peace. It's began when I'm married. I live with MIL a.k.a Mother In Law and her family. Yup, that's explain everything right? They aren't a bad people, really but tend to look good and nice everytime, everywhere. Hmmm, how to explain this... It's like they always want to have a good & high class reputation in everyone's eyes. So "Mind your manner" or "Don't do it like that" like a "food" for me everyday that make me act like a robot. Hypocrite but kind 😂. Who am I to judge people? But I have my own rights to live in peace right? So, it's one of many reasons that I feel tired everyday. In my family back then, I used to live my life flexibly. I sleep when I feel sleepy, eat when I'm hungry, go to everywhere everytime. But in his family, like there is an unwritten rules. They are stiff, awkward (eventhough they ARE family) and hard to joke. It's make me feel so bad at myself because I became the one that I despise the most = HYPOCRITE. I had so many mask that I wear everyday, except in bathroom. Pity, right? My bad parameter in myself, is getting bigger day by day. I hate it so much 'till SOMETIMES, I feel regret to got married (after said to my mom that I won't get married before).
And to make it worse, after got a daughter, I don't have any time at all for refreshing. I need to pumping and breastfeeding my baby at pointed time. My job spend most of my time. My husband need to take care of. *SIGH*.... I got nowhere to relieve my overstress and there is no time either. I don't have any desire to do anything beside wanting desperately to have a proper sleep time without any nuisance. Bad, really - really a bad year for me last year. Crying, overlystress, flat, don't feel like doing anything, want to kill myself and don't mention my relationship with my God. It's like I already became friend with devil, seriously, with all of anger, despair, sad, dissappointed feeling I had in my heart. I never feel so ugly, bad, disgusting like this before....
Argh, I need to continue this to the next post (T_T). I have something to do and my mind like full with a lot of word to write, arghhhh... So see you in the next post😁
I'm not dissappear yet!! ヘ（゜◇、゜）ノ.... Just immersed in the life... ( p′︵‵。)
Well..well...well....Really, this post is my first post in this year
eventhough it's already MARCH!!! .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.. I want to keep
posting everyday like other blogger buuuuttttt.... Yeah..there is no
other reason beside LIFE. (●￣(ｴ)￣●). *SLAP my face coz overly use "Life" for a reason*. But that's true *facepalm*. A lot of things happened in my life between this last three months.
After got engaged before, my bf want to made it more real. He arrange a dinner for both of our fam. I was nervous about that but it turn out nice *relieved*. After that, everything gone fast! They decided where the wedding will take place, the date for our wedding and bla bla bla.... Even me, the one who will get married didn't realized it myself. Everything looks so unreal to me! I cann't believe that I became a woman who will be a wife soon. OH....MY...GOODNESS! I got panicked back then. Especially, after my bf sent me an email about it's advance payment. I was scared. Maybe for other people, I seems so exaggerated. But for me, I feel like I will be bound to him until death with no freedom, like a bird in a cage. Is it a marriage blues? or just my pessimistic side become bigger than it was? It's funny to think when my friend comment about this. She said that usually, the one who feel afraid about marriage is a man, not me. Maybe, I just afraid of this quick development.... and fear of this complicated things too. I'm afraid that I cann't be happy like this if I already married... (T____T). Arghhhhh, did every woman who will get married have a feelings like this? or maybe some fear like me?...
Beside that, my life is full with my lesson, my job, my "stupid" thought about human *what the!??*, a lot of cute things, hang out time, a lot of delicious food! *u must see my insta about this khekhekhe..*, some missunderstanding with my boss and my critical thought about my career. Gahhh.... nowadays, I got easily tired from everything. Exhausted from every plan, event & schedule until I can find myself crying alone in the darkness without any reason... *don't be a crybaby, SLAP!!!*. I do realized that I need a long & full holiday myself, to refresh my mental & physical. But there is no time for that! o(╥﹏╥)o. Even, my wish list for now is HIBERNATION. Especially, with this coughing symptom, appear from nowhere...
Hemm.... for now, I just can pray for a strength from my God. I hope He can help me to go through this complicated life until the end..
After got engaged before, my bf want to made it more real. He arrange a dinner for both of our fam. I was nervous about that but it turn out nice *relieved*. After that, everything gone fast! They decided where the wedding will take place, the date for our wedding and bla bla bla.... Even me, the one who will get married didn't realized it myself. Everything looks so unreal to me! I cann't believe that I became a woman who will be a wife soon. OH....MY...GOODNESS! I got panicked back then. Especially, after my bf sent me an email about it's advance payment. I was scared. Maybe for other people, I seems so exaggerated. But for me, I feel like I will be bound to him until death with no freedom, like a bird in a cage. Is it a marriage blues? or just my pessimistic side become bigger than it was? It's funny to think when my friend comment about this. She said that usually, the one who feel afraid about marriage is a man, not me. Maybe, I just afraid of this quick development.... and fear of this complicated things too. I'm afraid that I cann't be happy like this if I already married... (T____T). Arghhhhh, did every woman who will get married have a feelings like this? or maybe some fear like me?...
Beside that, my life is full with my lesson, my job, my "stupid" thought about human *what the!??*, a lot of cute things, hang out time, a lot of delicious food! *u must see my insta about this khekhekhe..*, some missunderstanding with my boss and my critical thought about my career. Gahhh.... nowadays, I got easily tired from everything. Exhausted from every plan, event & schedule until I can find myself crying alone in the darkness without any reason... *don't be a crybaby, SLAP!!!*. I do realized that I need a long & full holiday myself, to refresh my mental & physical. But there is no time for that! o(╥﹏╥)o. Even, my wish list for now is HIBERNATION. Especially, with this coughing symptom, appear from nowhere...
Hemm.... for now, I just can pray for a strength from my God. I hope He can help me to go through this complicated life until the end..
A quick update of my life & New development! (*⌒▽⌒*)θ～♪
Long time no see! (*＾▽＾)／.
I didn't have any excuse except LIFE. Yeah, Life kept me busy allllll the time. That's why I can only post if there is something special happen. It's better than posting with the same topic everyday (・｀ω´・) (Work, Life, etc). So let's go to the main topic!
Today, for celebrate my 3rd anniversary with my dear, We decided to had a great & romantic dinner at SKYE. Actually, the real date was Nov 14th but coz of our job, we decided to move our appointment. SKYE is a great restaurant with indoor & outdoor part.
I didn't have any excuse except LIFE. Yeah, Life kept me busy allllll the time. That's why I can only post if there is something special happen. It's better than posting with the same topic everyday (・｀ω´・) (Work, Life, etc). So let's go to the main topic!
Today, for celebrate my 3rd anniversary with my dear, We decided to had a great & romantic dinner at SKYE. Actually, the real date was Nov 14th but coz of our job, we decided to move our appointment. SKYE is a great restaurant with indoor & outdoor part.
Indoor
Coz we want to have dinner with a cozy & quiet atmosphere, we choose
the indoor part. And if u want to get a table without waiting, u must
reserve first. Fortunately, my dear always be a planner type so we got a table easily. To make it short, after we had a nice & delicious dinner, He told
asked me....to be his fiance!°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°. Wait a minute! Don't think
he will ask me with a romantic scene like some korean drama, hahaha. He
said it frankly that from today I'm his fiance & put on a simple but
lovely ring to my right finger. What an arrogant & always act cool
bf!~(˘▾˘)~. But I was happy so I let it pass. We don't want to make
this beautiful day become a bad day, don't we? I didn't cry but panic!
Lol. Is this mean I will get married soon!???? Σ(゜ロ゜;).
Seafood Paella
Yeah, Food porn!!!! (♥ω♥ ) ~♪. Actually, the main reason he choose this
restaurant was Seafood Paella! Nope, He didn't crave anything. Seafood
paella was the food I always craving for almost two months long and in
my country, It was difficult to find a restaurant with Paella on its
menu. So without telling me at all, he searched it himself. So
sweeeeeet, isn't he? ♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ ). How can I leave such a sweet guy
like him? Eventhough he isn't a romantic person to begin with, He
prepared everything with his own mind. Thank God really, to made us met
(｡◕‿◕｡). I know I'm not a perfect person but he accept me for who I am. I
cann't do anything beside make him the happiest guy in this world hehe.
Bless me God for that :).
After that, we met & hang out together with my lovely sis & her friend at Paulaner Brauhaus. This place was cozy but unfortunately, we got a smooking room. But that's okay! We got to taste their own made beer!! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ. That's what I waiting for!!!! *excited*
After that, we met & hang out together with my lovely sis & her friend at Paulaner Brauhaus. This place was cozy but unfortunately, we got a smooking room. But that's okay! We got to taste their own made beer!! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ. That's what I waiting for!!!! *excited*
Yeah, with that pic, my post was over. It's already midnight here & I
still have a little chit chat time with my lovely sis before I go to
bed. Today was unbelievable but sweet time for me, (｡^‿^｡). I just can
said Thanks to my God & pray the best for my life after this point,
about my wedding plan, my work & my dream. I hope everything gonna
be okay....... See u guys later! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
It has been a long time! ヾ(＠^∇^＠)ノ
Hi! It has been a long time, really. I got so busy with my work & my life until I cann't post anything 
. That's why when I have a free time like this, syutt!!!!!!.... work my fingers to my sweetiest keyboard, LoL. Let's begin 
So far, My life has been smoothly. There wasn't any big problem here & there. Just through it day by day with my best effort!
. And guess what? I can said "Today is a beautiful day!" everyday! Really, EVERYDAY!! 
.
How cool is that!?? Hahaha. I just be grateful & happy day by day. I
didn't say there is no problem at all but I try to kick away that
gloomy thing. I try to be positive as much as I can. Work has been
hectic, yeah, as usual but I enjoy it to the max! 
.
I did my two different job with the same responsibility, Hang out or
watch movies together with my coworkers, had a quality time with my
beloved sisters, ADDICTED to The Mentalist so much! (hohoho Thx to my
Head Accounting for that), listening my favourite songs while work hard,
ate so many delicious food. How cann't I be happy? Thx God really, 
.
Yesterday, I with my bf, my lovely sis & mom went to this big wedding expo. No, no, I don't get married as quick as I can. But we went there so we can calculate the budget. Actually, I don't like exhibition and prefer to have a dinner with delicious food, LoL
. Buuuutttt, my mom said
"It's worthed to check first so u know the budget". And, arghhhh, It's so expensive for wedding! Especially, for us as a chinese. I hope I can have a western wedding, simple yet lovely, but yeah, If I don't want to make a war, just do it as usual *headdesk*. So for now, we must choose what best for our wedding but didn't know the date or the theme yet *shot me*. I guess this will take a lot of time to search, make a desicion, or maybe choose the date. Arghhh, can I say it? can I? I HATE COMPLICATED THINGS!!!! *scream*
. That's why when I have a free time like this, syutt!!!!!!.... work my fingers to my sweetiest keyboard, LoL. Let's begin So far, My life has been smoothly. There wasn't any big problem here & there. Just through it day by day with my best effort!
. And guess what? I can said "Today is a beautiful day!" everyday! Really, EVERYDAY!! .
How cool is that!?? Hahaha. I just be grateful & happy day by day. I
didn't say there is no problem at all but I try to kick away that
gloomy thing. I try to be positive as much as I can. Work has been
hectic, yeah, as usual but I enjoy it to the max! .
I did my two different job with the same responsibility, Hang out or
watch movies together with my coworkers, had a quality time with my
beloved sisters, ADDICTED to The Mentalist so much! (hohoho Thx to my
Head Accounting for that), listening my favourite songs while work hard,
ate so many delicious food. How cann't I be happy? Thx God really, .Yesterday, I with my bf, my lovely sis & mom went to this big wedding expo. No, no, I don't get married as quick as I can. But we went there so we can calculate the budget. Actually, I don't like exhibition and prefer to have a dinner with delicious food, LoL
. Buuuutttt, my mom said "It's worthed to check first so u know the budget". And, arghhhh, It's so expensive for wedding! Especially, for us as a chinese. I hope I can have a western wedding, simple yet lovely, but yeah, If I don't want to make a war, just do it as usual *headdesk*. So for now, we must choose what best for our wedding but didn't know the date or the theme yet *shot me*. I guess this will take a lot of time to search, make a desicion, or maybe choose the date. Arghhh, can I say it? can I? I HATE COMPLICATED THINGS!!!! *scream*
A Successful for this week! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ
Yay, yay, yay! .
Finally, I can through this week with smile & feel grateful
everyday!!! Banzaiii for me! (ノ￣ー￣)ノ. Really, I feel proud to myself
when this week ended. I kept telling myself & repeat to my mind that
I cann't lose from everything that made me sad, miserable, angry &
down. I'm happy doing my hobbies, ate a lot of delicious foods &
play games to my heart content 
So that's it! With this cheerful & happy feelings, I feel like to write ~diary like~ post. Let's begin with some photos, shall we?
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Finally, I can through this week with smile & feel grateful
everyday!!! Banzaiii for me! (ノ￣ー￣)ノ. Really, I feel proud to myself
when this week ended. I kept telling myself & repeat to my mind that
I cann't lose from everything that made me sad, miserable, angry &
down. I'm happy doing my hobbies, ate a lot of delicious foods &
play games to my heart content So that's it! With this cheerful & happy feelings, I feel like to write ~diary like~ post. Let's begin with some photos, shall we?
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1. This top was my outfit for yesterday (a.k.a Saturday). I bought this
coz my coworkers choose it for me. They kept telling me that this cute
top was suitable for me (yeah with my small body ).
For the bottom, I used white jeggings to match the top. Yeah,
comfortable, feminine yet lovely. That's why I choose it for a nice
& semi formal dinner, （￣ー￣）.
2. A Rib Eye.........(-_-)ゞ゛ *think*... Hawaian err... Steak!
.
I forgot It's long name (T___T). Yeah, I think that was A Rib Eye
Hawaian Steak. We had dinner at this cozy & calm restaurant named Q
SmokeHouse 
. The steak was delicious! Really! Eventhough, I don't like meat (what the!??? ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━) but this steak was success to make me drooling & hungry in no time. I gave this 10/10! 
3. I bought this three boxes of cookies with different flavor for snack at Collete & Lola. The pink one is almond which is I love, The orange box is chocolate biscuit with a coffee cream (that's why it has a bitter taste! >.<), The last one which is green, is a round biscuit with pistachio inside & coated with snow sugar. I hope I can take some photos to show u guys what the snack looks like at each box but... yeah, we finished all in a second! Gomenn
4. This was a cord holder. As u can see from the pic above, I bought domo (on the right) last month. It's very useful to me that's why I decided to buy another one. But I choose different model from the first. I bought this rilakkuma (on the left) when I went to the market today. It's not expensive and cute too! The price is about $ 2 for one package.
5. Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! I'm very happy to bought this new cooking knife! Hahahaa (Don't know why
). Maybe because I love to cook
.
I got excited to buy a new knife & went to Ace Hardware
immediately, LoL. I choose this long knife so I can used it for
everything I want to cook. Yeah actually, my first plan was I bought
this sharp knife to cut some sushi roll but u know, woman, we buy
something that can be use for everything! XD
6. Haha, this was the result after I bought that new cooking knife. Beside that, I want to try to cut it without any failed! With a newweapon knife! 
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I used tsukini, tamagoyaki, smoked beef & crab stick for the
filling. My lovely sis tasted it before she go. She said it was
delicious & want to take it as a bento for her & her friend,
hahaha. But I didn't let it, I thought it's not VERY delicious like she
think. I didn't want she got ridiculed by her friend if they thought it
wasn't good enough. So yeah... I quite satisfied with the result, know
my fam love it, It's enough for me, 
.
).
For the bottom, I used white jeggings to match the top. Yeah,
comfortable, feminine yet lovely. That's why I choose it for a nice
& semi formal dinner, （￣ー￣）.2. A Rib Eye.........(-_-)ゞ゛ *think*... Hawaian err... Steak!
.
I forgot It's long name (T___T). Yeah, I think that was A Rib Eye
Hawaian Steak. We had dinner at this cozy & calm restaurant named Q
SmokeHouse . The steak was delicious! Really! Eventhough, I don't like meat (what the!??? ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━) but this steak was success to make me drooling & hungry in no time. I gave this 10/10! 3. I bought this three boxes of cookies with different flavor for snack at Collete & Lola. The pink one is almond which is I love, The orange box is chocolate biscuit with a coffee cream (that's why it has a bitter taste! >.<), The last one which is green, is a round biscuit with pistachio inside & coated with snow sugar. I hope I can take some photos to show u guys what the snack looks like at each box but... yeah, we finished all in a second! Gomenn
4. This was a cord holder. As u can see from the pic above, I bought domo (on the right) last month. It's very useful to me that's why I decided to buy another one. But I choose different model from the first. I bought this rilakkuma (on the left) when I went to the market today. It's not expensive and cute too! The price is about $ 2 for one package.
5. Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! I'm very happy to bought this new cooking knife! Hahahaa (Don't know why
). Maybe because I love to cook.
I got excited to buy a new knife & went to Ace Hardware
immediately, LoL. I choose this long knife so I can used it for
everything I want to cook. Yeah actually, my first plan was I bought
this sharp knife to cut some sushi roll but u know, woman, we buy
something that can be use for everything! XD6. Haha, this was the result after I bought that new cooking knife. Beside that, I want to try to cut it without any failed! With a new
.
I used tsukini, tamagoyaki, smoked beef & crab stick for the
filling. My lovely sis tasted it before she go. She said it was
delicious & want to take it as a bento for her & her friend,
hahaha. But I didn't let it, I thought it's not VERY delicious like she
think. I didn't want she got ridiculed by her friend if they thought it
wasn't good enough. So yeah... I quite satisfied with the result, know
my fam love it, It's enough for me, .
Really, this week was fabulous! I love it when everything going smoothly & simple! 
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It's thanks to my God for every Gifts that He gave to me. I can smile
everyday from my heart with a grateful feelings. I thought there wasn't
any other thing that can be compared to this happines. Thank's God for
everything 
. Now, It's time to prepare myself to fight for another week. 
.
It's thanks to my God for every Gifts that He gave to me. I can smile
everyday from my heart with a grateful feelings. I thought there wasn't
any other thing that can be compared to this happines. Thank's God for
everything . Now, It's time to prepare myself to fight for another week.
My Biggest Effort to through this week! ლ(ಠ_ಠლ)
At my last post, I already said that I will try to feel grateful
everyday & give the best smile for everyone. But yeah, Life is full
of surprise & I began to pushed myself to the end to through this
week! It was began with my job. I came to my office with my truly &
big smile (It's not weird for the others coz I usually smile to them) 
.
I was happy with my job. It's hard but I love to learn something new
& proud with it if I can finish it without any problem. But this
matter, so far from I imagine. Somehow, I was responsible for something
that didn't included in my job desk. Yes, I had been asked by VP to
help him & happy to help but after I finished it, He kept calling me
to help him eventhough I had my own work to do. And it's hell a lot
than what he asked me to help. To make it short, finally I refused to
help coz I had my own responsibility to do.
Guess what? As stubborn as he is, he still called me to help him. So in the end, I did two works at the same time. In my heart, I always said so many times, "Don't worry. U can do it! If He gives that to u, that means u can do it"
.
Buuuuuuuuuuut, that's reality for u. I got depressed day by day until I
felt so stressed. And It's harder for me to smile everyday, I try it,
still! In the end, I got this feeling told me, "why must u lied to urself? Smiling when u want to crying? That's sad..."
. But yeah, me with stubborn~didn't want to get weak~mind, kept trying so hard to fullfil my promise *stupid me*.
Until (yeah like father like daughter), I had a fight with my dad just because I want the best for him. I love my fam so much. I want they always bless with happiness. He thought that I never understand him. His health was weaken & I try to make him life as healthy as he can but he didn't care about that. Even he ate some dish that was forbidden for him. How must I react about that? Especially after I stressed so much from my job, came home to rest & found him like that. Like a volcano ready to erupt!. I feel sad, dissappointed & angry.
And yeah (like there is no end for me), I got another problem from my bf. He made me feel so dissappointed. Oh God... at that time, I forgot my promise completely. Really, I just went to my room, cried in the silence until my tears was dry & asked to myself why this thing must happen when I tried so hard. After that, I sat at my bed. Blanked completely in mind, staring to nowhere & didn't have any appetite at all! *shoot!*. I felt so damn useless then got sicked for a day. Doctor said my blood pressure got so low & something wrong with my gastric. I got one day long to rest beside think, think & think. I asked to my God why even my simple wish cann't be true. I asked myself, "am I going to lose?". Really, "heart broken" from ur beloved people was hard to heal. It needs 1 day long for me to stand up & decided to try my best (again!).
God always loves "His children" so He gives help with His own way. I tried to back to my promise again. I left my problems behind & hang out with my best girlfriends. And like, the door opened itself, my bf picked me up to settle our problem (eventually, he said he didn't think about our problem & picked me up to had a nice dinner together. He was worried when I was sicked & want to make me eat happily. That's why he took me to this nice Japanese restaurant
.Thank u so much my dear). So I'm happy again! 
Yeah, maybe later I will meet the same problem or maybe more bad or nothing will happen? I don't know. I just through my life day by day & kept told myself to be grateful, hehe. Enough with my rumble (maybe :p), I will give u guys this delicious food pic which made me fly to heaven in a second! :3. See u guys next time!
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I was happy with my job. It's hard but I love to learn something new
& proud with it if I can finish it without any problem. But this
matter, so far from I imagine. Somehow, I was responsible for something
that didn't included in my job desk. Yes, I had been asked by VP to
help him & happy to help but after I finished it, He kept calling me
to help him eventhough I had my own work to do. And it's hell a lot
than what he asked me to help. To make it short, finally I refused to
help coz I had my own responsibility to do.Guess what? As stubborn as he is, he still called me to help him. So in the end, I did two works at the same time. In my heart, I always said so many times, "Don't worry. U can do it! If He gives that to u, that means u can do it"
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Buuuuuuuuuuut, that's reality for u. I got depressed day by day until I
felt so stressed. And It's harder for me to smile everyday, I try it,
still! In the end, I got this feeling told me, "why must u lied to urself? Smiling when u want to crying? That's sad...". But yeah, me with stubborn~didn't want to get weak~mind, kept trying so hard to fullfil my promise *stupid me*.Until (yeah like father like daughter), I had a fight with my dad just because I want the best for him. I love my fam so much. I want they always bless with happiness. He thought that I never understand him. His health was weaken & I try to make him life as healthy as he can but he didn't care about that. Even he ate some dish that was forbidden for him. How must I react about that? Especially after I stressed so much from my job, came home to rest & found him like that. Like a volcano ready to erupt!
. I feel sad, dissappointed & angry.And yeah (like there is no end for me), I got another problem from my bf. He made me feel so dissappointed. Oh God... at that time, I forgot my promise completely. Really, I just went to my room, cried in the silence until my tears was dry & asked to myself why this thing must happen when I tried so hard. After that, I sat at my bed. Blanked completely in mind, staring to nowhere & didn't have any appetite at all! *shoot!*. I felt so damn useless then got sicked for a day. Doctor said my blood pressure got so low & something wrong with my gastric. I got one day long to rest beside think, think & think. I asked to my God why even my simple wish cann't be true. I asked myself, "am I going to lose?". Really, "heart broken" from ur beloved people was hard to heal. It needs 1 day long for me to stand up & decided to try my best (again!
).God always loves "His children" so He gives help with His own way. I tried to back to my promise again. I left my problems behind & hang out with my best girlfriends. And like, the door opened itself, my bf picked me up to settle our problem (eventually, he said he didn't think about our problem & picked me up to had a nice dinner together. He was worried when I was sicked & want to make me eat happily. That's why he took me to this nice Japanese restaurant
.Thank u so much my dear). So I'm happy again! Yeah, maybe later I will meet the same problem or maybe more bad or nothing will happen? I don't know. I just through my life day by day & kept told myself to be grateful, hehe. Enough with my rumble (maybe :p), I will give u guys this delicious food pic which made me fly to heaven in a second! :3. See u guys next time!
Thank's to God for this quiet & peaceful week! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♥
Hehe like the title above, Somehow this week really really really peacefulll!! (eventhough, day by day I got busy with my job but that doesn't mean I cann't be grateful for all of My God's blessing).
There wasn't any weirdos in my contacts, big problem in life, I can eat
delicious food, My dear didn't annoyed me, I can read so many
beautiful books & I can watched Itsjudylife, bubzbeauty &
pewdiepie everyday! So yeah, I can told everyone that I'm happy this
week!! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°
Haha, such a simple life but I'm totally happy with this kind of life. I know I'm not rich, not pretty like any artist in the world or even too smart to begin with. But God gives me the best things I ever had = warmth & simple fam, my weird~funny but kindhearted~ dear, my lovely~always be there~ best friends, my funny~serious yet friendly & family like~coworkers & life to always wake up on the next day and be with my beloved people around me, (｡◕‿◕｡).
Life still hard but I try to feel grateful everyday & give the best smile for everyone. Thank u so much God, really! U're the best in my life! (｡♥‿♥｡)
(This is maybe the shortest post that I ever made but really, this post was made with happiness in my heart. I cann't even stop smiling when I typed this post haha, stupid me. But this means I feel really grateful & happy without any big & happy occasion happen to me. I love my ordinary & simple life!)
Haha, such a simple life but I'm totally happy with this kind of life. I know I'm not rich, not pretty like any artist in the world or even too smart to begin with. But God gives me the best things I ever had = warmth & simple fam, my weird~funny but kindhearted~ dear, my lovely~always be there~ best friends, my funny~serious yet friendly & family like~coworkers & life to always wake up on the next day and be with my beloved people around me, (｡◕‿◕｡).
Life still hard but I try to feel grateful everyday & give the best smile for everyone. Thank u so much God, really! U're the best in my life! (｡♥‿♥｡)
(This is maybe the shortest post that I ever made but really, this post was made with happiness in my heart. I cann't even stop smiling when I typed this post haha, stupid me. But this means I feel really grateful & happy without any big & happy occasion happen to me. I love my ordinary & simple life!)
Holiday & A New Handmade! (｡♥‿♥｡)
really, times run so quickly when we enjoy it (~,~). [Give me another holiday!!!!!! ヽ(*´Д｀*)ﾉ].
To make it short, my 1st part of holiday was Mall to Mall section hahaha. I don't know why but my bf & his friends seems want to know about the mall that they never go yet. So it became two malls in one day, :D. Actually, I don't like mall coz I just go there if I need something to buy and I don't like crowded place to begin with. But I was happy being together with them and importantly, I can found some delicious food there, :p. After that day, I went to ANOTHER MALL again with my mom. We seldom go together usually coz of my work so I use this chance to go a date with her, （⌒▽⌒）. We ate, went shopping together & met my uncle's fam unexpectedly. Made us more happy than it was! We had a long chit chat while eating some delicious yogurt. At 18:00 pm, me & my mom decided to went home coz I want to cook shabu shabu for our dinner (I'm happy that My mom love my shabu shabu so much!).
On monday, unfortunately, my three years old~handphone crashed without any reason. Leave me a reason to buy a new cellphone, =3. That's why I decided to bought Samsung Grand in this occasion. Actually, I always like this cellphone for a long time but never want to buy it if I don't need it. My friends always said that I was like a mother. I buy something that I need, not that I like. I told them coz I know how it feels to work hard everyday. So I don't want to use my money so easily like them. Hmmmm, in my mind, nowadays life is so hard. There is poverty everywhere. I do feel grateful to God for everything that He gave to me but that doesn't mean I can life so reckless, especially about money, :D.
Enough about that. So with this new handphone, My brain & my fingers feels like "there is something I can make!" LoL. Suddenly, "I want to make a new handphone strap handmade!" appeared on my mind. Fortunately, I had some free time on me so without any hesitation, I made a pattern & began to make it. And this is the result :
To make it short, my 1st part of holiday was Mall to Mall section hahaha. I don't know why but my bf & his friends seems want to know about the mall that they never go yet. So it became two malls in one day, :D. Actually, I don't like mall coz I just go there if I need something to buy and I don't like crowded place to begin with. But I was happy being together with them and importantly, I can found some delicious food there, :p. After that day, I went to ANOTHER MALL again with my mom. We seldom go together usually coz of my work so I use this chance to go a date with her, （⌒▽⌒）. We ate, went shopping together & met my uncle's fam unexpectedly. Made us more happy than it was! We had a long chit chat while eating some delicious yogurt. At 18:00 pm, me & my mom decided to went home coz I want to cook shabu shabu for our dinner (I'm happy that My mom love my shabu shabu so much!).
On monday, unfortunately, my three years old~handphone crashed without any reason. Leave me a reason to buy a new cellphone, =3. That's why I decided to bought Samsung Grand in this occasion. Actually, I always like this cellphone for a long time but never want to buy it if I don't need it. My friends always said that I was like a mother. I buy something that I need, not that I like. I told them coz I know how it feels to work hard everyday. So I don't want to use my money so easily like them. Hmmmm, in my mind, nowadays life is so hard. There is poverty everywhere. I do feel grateful to God for everything that He gave to me but that doesn't mean I can life so reckless, especially about money, :D.
Enough about that. So with this new handphone, My brain & my fingers feels like "there is something I can make!" LoL. Suddenly, "I want to make a new handphone strap handmade!" appeared on my mind. Fortunately, I had some free time on me so without any hesitation, I made a pattern & began to make it. And this is the result :
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| A Couple Doll |
At first I want to make one but after thought about it, I decided add one as a surprise for my bf, (•ㅅ•). This project took me nearly two days to finished it. Tired and need so many effort but I can smile proudly in the end when The result was good enough, :). After this, I will move to next project for my lil' sis. She asked me for it a few hours ago and I said I will make it after update my blog LoL.
And to make this day more wonderful (hey, that just what u think! ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌. Never mind!), I cooked tamagoyaki for me & my lil' sis dinner. Somehow we always love this simple menu hehe.
Brighter than gem! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°
Yeah, after two weeks fighting with myself. Up & Down, Up & down
again and again. It's time to up again! Don't get me wrong, Life never
flat so maybe there is a time I will be down again....... BUT! Don't
always focus on bad things. (It's funny, even for me, that I can be sad, negative, happy & positive at the same time ┐(￣ー￣)┌. Stupid me...). Please don't blame me if I post something sad then happy post next. That's Life. I just posting what I'm feeling that time, ԅ(≖‿≖ԅ) (blog = diary (*´∀`*)).
Back to main topic. So now, I cheer up again! and begin to hav a plan about try a new recipe. I got a lot of hobby and one of them is cooking. If I have any free time, I use it for cooking. And two (or three?) days ago, I cooked this :
Back to main topic. So now, I cheer up again! and begin to hav a plan about try a new recipe. I got a lot of hobby and one of them is cooking. If I have any free time, I use it for cooking. And two (or three?) days ago, I cooked this :
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| Spaghetti Carbonara ala chef Matteo |
That recipe was so easy! U can do it urself at ur home quickly for a "delicious but not so hard" pasta! (｡♥‿♥｡). (U
can watch this video to know the recipe
http://id.she.yahoo.com/mamma-mia-resep-spaghetti-carbonara-134100045.html.
Really, It's simple! I cooked it after watched his video). And because I love pasta so much, I was happy while cooking this. My lovely sis love it too! We happily ate together (❁´◡`❁)*✲ﾟ*.
So for now, I quite interested in Paella. I searched for its recipe (delicious & easy recipe, of course!) here and there and finally found it! All that's left now is the time to cook. I hope I can spare one time to cook it (˘ʃƪ˘).
Yeah that's just a simple plan but for me, it's enough to bright my day with getting excited to gather all of the ingredients & hav a new cooking experience, ヽ(○´∀`)ﾉ♪. Beside that, a few hours ago, I read some cute quotes (plus cute drawing! U guys will like it!) at http://chibird.com/.
So for now, I quite interested in Paella. I searched for its recipe (delicious & easy recipe, of course!) here and there and finally found it! All that's left now is the time to cook. I hope I can spare one time to cook it (˘ʃƪ˘).
Yeah that's just a simple plan but for me, it's enough to bright my day with getting excited to gather all of the ingredients & hav a new cooking experience, ヽ(○´∀`)ﾉ♪. Beside that, a few hours ago, I read some cute quotes (plus cute drawing! U guys will like it!) at http://chibird.com/.
That pic above, slap me a little. I used to look down like that, several
days ago, and yeah what I only see just the ground. I must gather all
of my courage to keep my head high & think positively! (ง •̀_•́)ง.
This good friend told me "Try not to make things so confusing for yourself." (Thank's to buffywrestling (づ￣ ³￣)づ).
So I try and cheer up myself. I try to focus on the positive side, not
negative side. I want to make myself more brighter than before, from
inside and outside (˘ʃƪ˘). Yosh!! :D
A new start! but........ ԅ(≖‿≖ԅ)
The strom in my life has passed...... Finally *sigh*. To make it short =
depressed ~> Looking for a job ~> got a new job~> made a new
start at my new office (꒪⌓꒪). My explanation was simple but in reality,
that really really complicated. I feel relieved when they said "Okay,
when u can start to work at our company?" (especially, after struggle so hard in 3 hours to decide between three choices). It started on June 10th and for the umpteenth time, I tried to adapt quickly in my job & that new environment.
There wasn't any weird things & rules but somehow, I felt terrible at first~three days. I got home with a heavy burden in heart without any reason. I don't know why... I just cry silently at my room. This is a weird feeling, isn't it? I keep asking myself, "what's wrong with me?". Even I searched about "stress symptom" on google and try to find out about how to cure stress. I really don't know what to do, what to think. I'm afraid that I am going insane. I just can pray to my God and go to the church.
Luckily, I got busy with my new responsibilty and forget about one or two problems. Like yesterday, my company made an outing event at one park. They divided us into 7 teams and gave us some games to improve our teamwork & mind. That was a fun & positive activities. I didn't think too much about my "worries". After that, I went to mall with my mom, my bf, my lovely sis & her friend. It was a nice hangout. We chit chat together & laughed happily. And voila! My day run so quickly! When we went home, everyone felt so tired and quickly go to sleep. A nice day without any cry, sadness & feeling down. (ง •̀_•́)ง
The next day (a.k.a today), I went to church at 08.30 am. At 10.00 am, I was ready to attend my friend's wedding with my friend, his gf & her friend. That trip took almost three hours until we found the right place. I met all of my ex-coworkers there and chat happily. We ate, took some photo then continue our trip with hunting some delicious snacks there. I got home at 19.00 pm with a tired & exhausted face. Really, two days full activities in a row, It's possible to get really2 tired from it, (ಥ⌣ಥ). But, actually, it's nice, tired but happy. And I got a new friend from this trip, :). She said It's nice to go with me and ask when will the next trip be, (¬‿¬).
Overall, there wasn't any special thing, just a daily life and somehow, I thought that "maybe it's nice to get married...". Is that a sign for me to settle down finally?... Or I just feel "Yeah, there is nothing more to achieve...."?... I'm still confused but...... if God turn my way to get married, maybe I will do it... woman career or housewife? щ(ºДºщ)
There wasn't any weird things & rules but somehow, I felt terrible at first~three days. I got home with a heavy burden in heart without any reason. I don't know why... I just cry silently at my room. This is a weird feeling, isn't it? I keep asking myself, "what's wrong with me?". Even I searched about "stress symptom" on google and try to find out about how to cure stress. I really don't know what to do, what to think. I'm afraid that I am going insane. I just can pray to my God and go to the church.
Luckily, I got busy with my new responsibilty and forget about one or two problems. Like yesterday, my company made an outing event at one park. They divided us into 7 teams and gave us some games to improve our teamwork & mind. That was a fun & positive activities. I didn't think too much about my "worries". After that, I went to mall with my mom, my bf, my lovely sis & her friend. It was a nice hangout. We chit chat together & laughed happily. And voila! My day run so quickly! When we went home, everyone felt so tired and quickly go to sleep. A nice day without any cry, sadness & feeling down. (ง •̀_•́)ง
The next day (a.k.a today), I went to church at 08.30 am. At 10.00 am, I was ready to attend my friend's wedding with my friend, his gf & her friend. That trip took almost three hours until we found the right place. I met all of my ex-coworkers there and chat happily. We ate, took some photo then continue our trip with hunting some delicious snacks there. I got home at 19.00 pm with a tired & exhausted face. Really, two days full activities in a row, It's possible to get really2 tired from it, (ಥ⌣ಥ). But, actually, it's nice, tired but happy. And I got a new friend from this trip, :). She said It's nice to go with me and ask when will the next trip be, (¬‿¬).
Overall, there wasn't any special thing, just a daily life and somehow, I thought that "maybe it's nice to get married...". Is that a sign for me to settle down finally?... Or I just feel "Yeah, there is nothing more to achieve...."?... I'm still confused but...... if God turn my way to get married, maybe I will do it... woman career or housewife? щ(ºДºщ)
Unexpected-Warmth Happiness! ♪♪(o*゜∇゜)o～♪♪
Lol, I don't know how to start this post. Today, my life like a roller coaster! (I hope I don't spell "roller coaster" wrong, sometimes my head got blank & missing some words here and there (⊙﹏⊙✿) ).
So, at 09:00 am, I went to work (Oh yeah, I still work on Saturday coz of my stupid boss), there wasn't any special thing beside I got mad to my coworker (Just called him A). Not because he did some mistake but I scold him coz he is my bestfriend. My stupid boss used A as much as she wants. U guys maybe think that I'm too arrogant or something by comment about this. But let me, explain everything. I never want to intervene to other's problem but this one, I got angry coz my boss's unfairness. I had another coworker called B. U can say this B person, not really discipline at work. Just because, B is my boss's friend, B can do anything he wants. Not only, B neglecting his works & comes late, B OFTEN off from work with reason "Sorry, I got drunk last night..." and with that, my boss accept that reason! (WTF!???? (●__●)). I'm sure if one of us (beside B), get off with that reason, my boss will kick or fired us for sure. Back to main problem, with B's absent, his job was delegated all to my friend, A. At first, I just "Ok, helping it's ok if this for our company" but after several times, I just "Hold on a second! Why did u do all of his job when he didn't even hav any reasonable reason to be off? U hav ur own job to do". I didn't tell A to be bad but to be logic. That's why we hav a job desk, right? So we can do our responsibility properly. I know we always try to be a good person but not to be used like this. There is no wrong with helping but this unfairness is a no-no. Fortunately, A understood what I mean and said will talk to our boss if "her unfairness" comes again. Ahh such a bad boss, really.....
Never mind, continue to 13:00 pm, I was happy to spend my time with my lovely sis & A ♪(´ε｀ ) (with this u will know why I said roller coaster). I asked A to go with me. We chat together while having our delicious lunch, went to pet shop and smile widely while looking at that cute hamster, bunny, doggie & kitten and had snack (*゜▽゜ノノ゛☆. That happy time made me forget all of the bad things in the morning! XD. After that, we met our friend & his gf while my lovely sis got home. We had this quick meeting to talk about & do our side job. Quite took my time, especially with my bf kept contact me to know what time I got home (I got another appointment for today). So I quickly did everything and finished it at 16:00 pm. I got ready at home then accompany my bf for the rest of this day until 21:00 pm.
Then, that unexpected & warmth happiness comes! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°. Begin with my simple thought about cook for my sisters, ended with a big laughter & smile, (｡♥‿♥｡). I cooked a simple~homemade shabu-shabu and asked my fam to eat together. Simple isn't it? Everyday we got busy with our own activities and only meet at night for a few minutes then go to sleep. So I thought there is nothing wrong with this simple plan. And that's what I got, we chat and laughed happily while eating this delicious shabu-shabu.
So, at 09:00 am, I went to work (Oh yeah, I still work on Saturday coz of my stupid boss), there wasn't any special thing beside I got mad to my coworker (Just called him A). Not because he did some mistake but I scold him coz he is my bestfriend. My stupid boss used A as much as she wants. U guys maybe think that I'm too arrogant or something by comment about this. But let me, explain everything. I never want to intervene to other's problem but this one, I got angry coz my boss's unfairness. I had another coworker called B. U can say this B person, not really discipline at work. Just because, B is my boss's friend, B can do anything he wants. Not only, B neglecting his works & comes late, B OFTEN off from work with reason "Sorry, I got drunk last night..." and with that, my boss accept that reason! (WTF!???? (●__●)). I'm sure if one of us (beside B), get off with that reason, my boss will kick or fired us for sure. Back to main problem, with B's absent, his job was delegated all to my friend, A. At first, I just "Ok, helping it's ok if this for our company" but after several times, I just "Hold on a second! Why did u do all of his job when he didn't even hav any reasonable reason to be off? U hav ur own job to do". I didn't tell A to be bad but to be logic. That's why we hav a job desk, right? So we can do our responsibility properly. I know we always try to be a good person but not to be used like this. There is no wrong with helping but this unfairness is a no-no. Fortunately, A understood what I mean and said will talk to our boss if "her unfairness" comes again. Ahh such a bad boss, really.....
Never mind, continue to 13:00 pm, I was happy to spend my time with my lovely sis & A ♪(´ε｀ ) (with this u will know why I said roller coaster). I asked A to go with me. We chat together while having our delicious lunch, went to pet shop and smile widely while looking at that cute hamster, bunny, doggie & kitten and had snack (*゜▽゜ノノ゛☆. That happy time made me forget all of the bad things in the morning! XD. After that, we met our friend & his gf while my lovely sis got home. We had this quick meeting to talk about & do our side job. Quite took my time, especially with my bf kept contact me to know what time I got home (I got another appointment for today). So I quickly did everything and finished it at 16:00 pm. I got ready at home then accompany my bf for the rest of this day until 21:00 pm.
Then, that unexpected & warmth happiness comes! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°. Begin with my simple thought about cook for my sisters, ended with a big laughter & smile, (｡♥‿♥｡). I cooked a simple~homemade shabu-shabu and asked my fam to eat together. Simple isn't it? Everyday we got busy with our own activities and only meet at night for a few minutes then go to sleep. So I thought there is nothing wrong with this simple plan. And that's what I got, we chat and laughed happily while eating this delicious shabu-shabu.
Stupid me for didn't took a photo earlier, T___T. This is my bowl...
I was grateful, really-really grateful for this little but happy things.
Everyone always seek for happiness but if we don't feel grateful for
what we already have, we won't find any happiness itself. Don't get me
wrong, problems still comes to my life but this happy time, enough to
fill my heart and my strength so I can through this life more stronger.
Importantly, I thank's to my God for let this happen, (・∀・). And now,
It's time to sleep. Tomorrow, I have a full day seminar to attend. I
will do my best for my & my fam's happiness! (ง •̀_•́)ง.
Suddenly, job changed for side job!!?? Σ(ﾟﾛﾟ｣)｣
Hahaha, Finally I have time again to sit & make a post! (Silly, why u start this posting with laugh!? ヽ(#ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ┌┛Σ(ノ´Д`)ノ ).
Life has been hectic! That sounds like a pathetic excuse, I know. But
that was the reality (T⌓T). Andddddd, last but not least, I spent one
week full to watch Keroro gunso, ԅ(≖‿≖ԅ). I fall in love with that
green~cute~little frog, ♥～(‘▽^人).
Enough about that, I will talk about keroro nonstop until 5 pages long if I didn't stop now, (even now, keroro still running on my desktop, (*≧▽≦)ﾉｼ)).
Like what I said above, somehow I had a side job from now and coz of
one and another, I get this job changed (or addition?). Not that I mind,
actually I like it coz It was one of my hobbies, XD. I realized that I
don't have any basic about computer but I do hav a lot of experience. So
I tried to do it and voila! (thanx to God)
after several trial and error process, I made it successfully!
°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°. It's not a big deal but I feel happy and refresh after
did it. All of this time, I did my job properly but didn't feel
satisfied, happy and proud in the end.
After this, I hav a lot of job to do, most of them isn't my speciality but I'm so excited to do it! XD. I hope this little change, can help me to find the best job for me, (˘ʃƪ˘).
After this, I hav a lot of job to do, most of them isn't my speciality but I'm so excited to do it! XD. I hope this little change, can help me to find the best job for me, (˘ʃƪ˘).
